Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Day 1

Today, January 2, 2013 is the first day of what I'm calling my sabbatical.  It's not an official sabbatical, of course, as I have no intention or ability to return to my job.  But it is a sort of sabbatical, a break from my regular life for the purpose of growth in other areas.  Health, avocation, relationships, peace...these are some other areas.

My computer clock still reads east-coast time, 8:30am.  I know exactly what's happening at Odyssey right now, I know who's already in trouble, I know what the kids are excitedly sharing at morning meeting.  I know the volume of emails to be returned, the likelihood that reentry will be difficult for many kids, the number of decisions to make even before the first cup of coffee is cold.  And I'm not there.  Not ever again, which is really kind of hard to wrap my mind around.  In a way it seems like the time between when I gave my notice in September to now was compressed, three months squeezed into a much shorter time.  Sitting here now, I'm struggling to not think that I abruptly abandoned the school, just up and walked away from something so important to me.  Rationally I know that I did take enough time to make the transition, to leave with grace and integrity.  It's just a weird feeling I have that the last 3 months happenened in a blink of an eye and now I live in Colorado and I don't have a job.  Time is moving at a faster pace now.  Is that because I'm 51 and squarely into the other side of my life?  I really don't know, but it does point out the obvious to me:

Here in Boulder with this gift of time I intend to soak it up, to live it fully no matter how ridiculously fast it goes. 

I'm starting my 3-month experience at Bikram today.  I'm thinking I'll go at least 4 times a week and also get onto the trails several times a week too for a good cardio workout.  And during all the other hours....I'll get back to you. 

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