today

omg it feels like we have a crazy amount to do before...what?  before Mark leaves CT for good in 6 hours? before we put the house on the market?  before we wrap our minds around what's actually happening? 

I really, really want to be excited about flying to Boulder today to see where we're going to live, to get a feel for it, to see the mountains, breathe the air...

but right now I'm a little bit freaking out.  i think we both are.  so we prioritized our tasks:  he's going through the mountain of old paperwork that found a home on the dining room table and I'm writing about it.  Whew i feel a little better already.

I know that as soon as we're on the plane and Enzo is all set for the weekend (thanks Jodi) and laundry is finished, house is cleaned, stuff is tidied, bike and guitar are stowed in cargo...i know we'll start to get really excited about what's happening. 

I told the Odyssey parents last night at our COOP meeting.  That was really hard. 

I think I'm not always adept at recognizing what i might mean to someone and what our relationship might  mean to the other person.  maybe I sometimes take relationships for granted.  I mean, I know that I value other people and appreciate our interactions and the things we do together, but on a deeper level I think i might not always get what's going on.  I'd like to work on this.  I bet my friends would appreciate it if i do. 

Now i'll go offer some material support to this morning's activities.  I bet my husband would appreciate it if i do.